I want to stop being a pharisee.
I want to start doing my homework when I’m supposed to.
I want to stop staying up late and waking up late.
I want to read my Bible more than once a week.
I want to stop my variety of pointless obsessions and compulsions.
I want to eat regularly and well.
I want to [...]

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You’re my friend in the afternoon
Evening comes I don’t know what to do
You’re my friend in the evening
Morning comes I don’t know what to do
Been spending nights with a burned out crowd
Dead end bar in a no-name town
Been spending days listing my regrets
Quit smoking after each cigarette
You’re the hit on the radio
New hits come I [...]

I haven’t been reading my Bible in over three weeks.

Shane & Shane – I Miss You (Video)
put down your paper plate
come to the table made
deep blue china
found on the table by the wine
so fine
it brings out flavor
like You bring out color in life
oh, i miss You so
the feel of forever
oh, that taste i know
it hurts to remember
unfortunately high
ironically dissatisfied
i miss You
i miss You
oh, i [...]

Nothing Gets Crossed Out

Well the future’s got me worried such awful thoughts
My head’s a carousel of pictures, the spinning never stops
I just want someone to walk in front
And I’ll follow the leader
Like when I fell under the weight of a schoolboy crush
Started carrying her books and doing lots of drugs
I almost forgot who I was
But came to my [...]

I’m sleeping under your doorpost all these cold and lonely nights,
So I won’t have far to walk when you open up your eyes.
And as morning comes, I’m waiting still, with a note for you to read:
Secrets I kept as you slept that will bend your heart towards me.

:’(

Getting egged on the way home from work doesn’t feel very good.
I’ve been feeling overwhelmed lately, but God is my stronghold.
Jesus, I my cross have taken, all to leave and follow Thee.
Destitute, despised, forsaken, Thou from hence my all shall be.
Perish every fond ambition, all I’ve sought or hoped or known.
Yet how rich is my [...]

Hm

I think I’m going to tahoe this week.
I like zero females.
I have been without my own transportation for like a week and a half.
It’s hot outside but I am still comfortable sitting outside in 105.
I have a new old roommate.
I’m going disconnecting myself from the world wide web until school starts.
School may not start for [...]

This blog

is not where I keep my real thoughts. I keep those in a little brown imitation Moleskine notebook that I bought at Target (though it is actually quite sturdier than a real Moleskine). I hope to have a bunch of them on a bookshelf by the time I’m grey, with Roman numerals on the spine. [...]

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I used to send up a little prayer everythme I heard a siren.
I don’t anymore.

FML

Once upon a time, I asked God to take away everything from my life so hat I only had Him to rely on. It worked. The most important thing in my life, my best friend and lover was taken away, and did I ever rely on him. I always ask Him to take away things [...]